Your memory is a monster - you forget, it doesn’t. It simply files things away. It keeps things from you, or hides things from you - and summons them to your recall with a will of its own. You think you have a memory, but it has you!

John Irving. (I hate my mind, seriously, I can get so embarrassed about things from 2005 and I stay awake before sleeping with the thoughts replaying in my head like static white noise all repeating.)